Just breathe

My friend/coworker who taught a yoga class at the store last night mentioned one thing that really resonated with me - “when in doubt, just go back to your breath.”

Just breathe. It’s really one of the main principles of yoga – finding your breath and maintaining it – it helps with postures, getting deeper into a pose and finding balance.

I’ve really been focusing on my breath this week and finding my balance.

You see, and just as a disclosure I know how ridiculous I’m being, and I know that things will be fine and all that but I’m a girl and I have a Crazy that sometimes, needs to be tamed.

Yoga has been helping though.

So back in 2006, shortly before I graduated and left my old life behind, I met an amazing dude. The bdf (best dude friend) of my bff.

And we hit it off. We really liked each other. But no matter what I did, things were just not in the cards. And I know that everything happens for a reason – had things not worked out I wouldn’t be with hubs and I wouldn’t trade hubs for anything. He’s my heart and soul.

But since 2006, I haven’t been in a situation where I’ve had to be around an ex. While BDF is not an ex per se, he broke my heart. And that’s enough for me.

So I’ve been quasi-freaking out about it all, seeing him. Being around him – how will he act? How will I act? Will it be awkward? Oh Em Gee what if it’s awkward? But, I do know one thing, I’ve come a long way from my naive, and overly emotional 23 year old self.

I can’t believe it’s been four years. It seems like a lifetime ago but I know it hasn’t been that long in all reality. But who I was then seems so far gone from who I am now.

But alas, I tend to do this. Find unnecessary situations to stress out about to pass my time. Not that I’ve had much time to dwell on things. I’ve been working a lot this week which has been amazing and awesome and fun but it’s still work and I’m still exhausted when I get home.

But I’ve been thinking a lot the past day or two since I had a long heart to heart in the pouring rain with Liz via phone, that I just need to breathe. To find my balance and remember what’s really important and stop sweating the small stuff that’s not going to matter at the end of the day.

Just breathe….

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