I’ve been crying a lot the past couple days, for no reason in particular, other than I just can’t seem to chuck this huge weight on my shoulders about everything and the breaking feeling in my heart that just seems constant. This feeling that for some reason I feel like I’m just destined to fail in everything I do. Pathetic, I know, but just…it’s feeling helpless and overwhelmed by life.
So Hubs sent me this this morning:
- God, grant me the serenity
- To accept the things I cannot change;
- The courage to change the things that I can;
- And the wisdom to know the difference.
I’m going to go repeat that to myself, go to yoga tomorrow to get into it again and start reading this book followed by this one. Hopefully this will all help perk up my mood in the long term and give me a little bit of much needed hope.
Sorry to be a bit of a debbie downer lately, sometimes you just need to vent, and writing makes everything better. In happier news, I’ve applied to a few hopeful freelance gigs, a couple of tutoring positions and a job. Grad school said I should hear back “soon.” As in the GPA waiver committee made their decision, sent it off to the director, and once he/she approves it, I’ll hear back. I’m not just keeping my fingers crossed, I’m praying because if this doesn’t work out I may have to rethink everything.
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awww. this CT meetup with me and you needs to happen ASAP!!! sorry you’ve been feeling down lately
Hello gorgeous!
Please feel better soon. I know exactly how you’re feeling and it’s no fun. I love what your hubs sent you. It’s something I need to write in my planner and read when I’m stressed.
Some other books to read that will make you happy and appreciate life..you may have already read, but here are my suggestions:
Eat Pray Love
The Last Lecture
Both of these books changed the way I looked at my own life.
Keep that pretty head up!
Hey girl,
I just wanted to let you know that I too went through a rought time like you are. I called it my “quarter life crisis”. In one week I moved into my first apartment (and ended up HATING my roommate), got fired from what I thought was my dream job, broke up with my boyfriend and totalled my car. I was in a bad spot in my life.
At 26 years old I had to go back to waiting tables at the same restaurant I worked at when I was in college. I was so miserable, confuse, and certian that I would never amount to anything.
Here is the ironic thing- that job that I thought was my dream job? I was rehired in another division by the same company a year later. Three months after I was rehired the entire division I was fired from was laid off. It was kinda of a blessing in disguise.
I guess the point of my story is a lot of people go through this- and they GET through it. I know things seem impossible right now, but just now that this is just a little blip on your life’s radar.
Just keep plugging along. You’ll find something
LB
Don’t feel bad, your blog is a great place to vent when you need it. Hang in there. Things will change eventually. And you’ve got a great hubs to see you through!
Another post that perfectly describes my life. Totally there with you. Hang in there, and please post a review of the books. Happiness Project was on my reading list (after I get through all of the relationship books…).