I may have been down yesterday, but I am not down for the count.
After a refreshing day up with the in-laws, and after getting lots of advice from many freaders and family friends, I’m still pursuing plan A, but I’m also enacting plan B. Pursuing private school at the suggestion of others; I will start the necessary history courses – hopefully taking at least one of them during the winter session. But me? I will become a teacher.
Not gonna lie though, I’ve been in a big rut. I’m trying to pull myself out of it. To do this? I will start running again, I will get out of the house, I will create a schedule for myself, and I will not waste away as a pseudo-fifties housewife.
The plus side of this all, is that I will also be joining junior league come january; and I will feel like I’m going somewhere with my career. Because really? Those two things have been my biggest downfall. Let me explain -
I’ve been completely overwhelmed. With life.
We got married. I lost my job. We traveled to and fro Connecticut. We moved. And I’m trying to transition careers.
Holy Life Batman!
I’ve been lonely, I’ve been feeling like a failure, I’ve been feeling like I’m not going anywhere. Easy to fall into a rut with everything crumbling around me.
But this? Needs to change. I am not that kind of gal. I don’t let myself be defeated. I’ve gotten everything I worked for, and despite a few bumps in the path, I will not fail at life.
So I’m back. Swinging. I will not be defeated. I will not let this bump in the path get me down. There are other solutions and I will pursue all of my options….vigorously.
Freaders, I’m back. And I’m bringing my A game. Watch out Life, I’m taking you back.
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Good for you.
You totally rock life and don’t be so hard on yourself; you’ve gone through MAJOR changes. You were extremely brave and adventurous to take all this on at once. It takes a little bit to get your footing again. Exciting things are out there for you, but think of it this way, you aren’t just sitting around the house, you are building your pipe line to have the foundation laid for all these incredible things about to happen. If you ever just want to get out of the house, you know where I am, if it’s easier, I can come to you and Ellie.
I think that’s awesome!
Our townhouse is on the same street as the UB campus, so you live really close to me! I’ve been in Stamford for 2 years, I’m originally from Wilton, which is about 20-30 min from Stamford!
Good for you! If you want it enough, I know you can make it happen!
so I am officially coming out of lurking status-not sure if you remember me from awhile back-we used to be LJ friends a LONG while back (stargurlie7399). ANYWAYS. I am here to give you some words of inspiration. I’ve had the same experience with my law education. I took the LSAT time #1, did TERRIBLE, (also after having a mediocre GPA in undergrad), and decided not to apply to law school. Four years later, after working at multiple jobs that made me hate life, I re-took the LSAT. did ONE POINT better than I did the first time. I was heartbroken. I ended up going to a pretty so-so law school for one year in Michigan, (it’s known among the law school community as the junior college of law schools. eveyone there wants to be somewhere else). Then, after a year, not only did I get a kick-ass GPA, but I got into a tier 1 law school. (didn’t end up going there, instead, went to a 3rd tier school in michigan to be near my husband). LONG STORY SHORT: you’re in the right mind set now! The things that we really want are supposed to come hard. If they didn’t then everyone would teach/be a lawyer/etc etc etc. It it just that much more awesome when you finally reach your goal.
also, I really think that the universe gives us what’s meant to be. If you were meant to be in that program, it will happen. Maybe there are other lessons you need to learn before you get there. or maybe you’re meant to be at another school that will turn out being 7 million times better than where you originally wanted to be. <3
It sounds like you have the support and the right attitude to succeed. Go for it!
I’m s0 glad to be reading this. Don’t let this roadblock set you back. Just like you said, you’re not that type of gal. Definitely not even close. <3
Way to go. You’ve got the right attitude.