We arrived home yesterday to a mess. A newlywed mess.
There’s not really a better term to describe everything right now – from all the empty boxes and gift paper scattered in our now-more-than-way-too-small living room to the fact that we’re seriously contemplating giving our 3 month notice on our apartment in about ten days.
Neither of us have jobs. I made some mistakes and got an email saying they had terminated my contract as I was about to dive into the warm Carribean waters on our snorkeling trip Thursday. Not the end of the world.
After the dive ended and we treked out to the second Island, I sat, I thought, and I realized I was putting off what I ultimately REALLY wanted to do.
I want to teach. I’ve always wanted to teach, but after I decided not to pursue admission in the school of Education at NU because of a slightly lackluster GPA, I never really thought I was good enough to pursue it.
I’m over that. I’m done accepting jobs I know I won’t be happy in because I think that’s the best I can do.
I don’t want to be in politics anymore – I don’t want to be near it, I don’t want to work in it. I just don’t. It’s not for me.
So. I’m taking the Praxis exam. I’m applying for MAT programs up in CT. I’m applying for TFA. I want to teach high school social studies and by golly, I’m not going to take NO for an answer. Originally, I wanted to teach history to high schoolers. For the longest time, then I got involved in the Dems, politics, interned on the hill and everything stumbled to where I am now. I’ve learned a lot, but mostly, with each position I’ve had in the past three years, at the end of them I keep finding myself wanting to teach but being too scared to pursue it. Now’s my chance. I’m pursuing it.
Hubs is pursuing jobs up in CT. Leads. Networking. We were told by the parents of one of our groomsmen that “it’s better to be jobless somewhere you’re happy as opposed to being unemployed somewhere you hate.” We’re kind of in a unique spot where we CAN leave if we want to. Its just going to take a lot of work. A lot of me not shopping. A lot of studying, and pushing for this. This is what we want, and me? I long for season tickets to NU hockey games, weekly dinners with my in-laws, monthly trips up to visit the parents/grandparents…especially before my grandparents stop recognizing us.
Life is going to be crazy for a bit, and if ANYONE has any advice to teaching certification in CT then well…please share. I know I need to take the praxis exam but that’s about it….
Wedding pictures and recaps to come this week – I PROMISE!!!!
