Latest Victim

by Heidi on March 12, 2009

It’s not a secret that I was unhappy in my most recent job. I felt largely that I was unchallenged, unmotivated and not really…going anywhere. There was, actually, no where to go.

So it was kind of a shock to me today at 5pm when my boss brought me into his office and told me they were restructuring, or reorganizing or whatever it was that he said after he said “We’re going to have to let you go.”

Ufff. Six months from my wedding day?!

Though typical, since I was having a no good, very bad day anyhow. Two paper cuts, two trips to get my boss’s lunch, and all around crankiness thanks to a lack of sleep.

It really is, as my two closest coworkers said to me, a blessing in disguise.

I was insanely unhappy. So much so that it was affecting my life outside of work – there was the ocassional day that I would cry before getting out of bed. There were days when I would want to curl up and cry under my desk. Days that I had such rage instilled in me.

No more.

I don’t have to wake up tomorrow. I can focus on freelancing, I can focus on our web design company. I can focus on other things like marathon training. Training the new pup. Reading. Etc…etc…

But still, it’s a little unnerving. Granted that ridiculously expensive stimulus package (that I might not have been a fan of previously) did just extend unemployment benefits, and the length of time that they’re available, so I might still have some faith in my party yet. And I did get like…a month’s severance (two weeks and my vacation time) so we have a wee bit of a cushion and I’m still waiting to hear about two jobs that I recently interviewed for. All is not lost.

Sooo….this isn’t such a bad thing after all. I can certainly make the best of a bad situation. There is a silver lining here. I know this.

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{ 35 comments… read them below or add one }

1 PQ March 12, 2009 at 8:01 pm

Of course there’s a silver lining…and you are so going to rock it.

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2 emmaelizabeth March 12, 2009 at 8:31 pm

awww so sorry to hear this, but if you were that unhappy- it probably is better. my dad just got laid off this week and although it isn’t permanent, it probably will be :( at least you’re waiting to hear back from some other positions and have some prospects :)

hang in there :)

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3 emmaelizabeth March 12, 2009 at 8:32 pm

ps- i usually read your posts thru Reader, so i haven’t seen this- but your layout is SUPER CUTE. love it.

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4 nicoleantoinette March 12, 2009 at 8:40 pm

Oh honey I’m sorry to hear about this. But seriously, it does sound like a blessing in disguise.

Let me know if there’s anything you need!!

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5 Megan March 12, 2009 at 9:17 pm

Good for you not being down, and for looking it as a situation that has a silver lining. I’m not that brave nor am I that tough.

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6 reederscorner March 12, 2009 at 9:27 pm

This happened to a friend of mine and he was super upset and it actually turned out to be the best thing, becuase in less than 2 weeks he got a more challenging career and it pays better… so I guess what I’m trying to say is that everything happens for a reason and it’ll all work out! Good LUCK!

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7 Gary March 12, 2009 at 10:00 pm

It sounds like you are doing what’s right – focusing not on the door that is closing, but rather on the doors that may be opening up.

A book I strongly suggest: The Success Principles, by Jack Canfield. I think it is life-changing.

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8 Jessica March 12, 2009 at 10:10 pm

Good for you for seeing the positive side to the whole situation!

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9 Jessica March 12, 2009 at 10:31 pm

Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry to hear this. I’m glad you’re being positive and looking at alternatives for right now. Stay strong.

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10 LindzML March 12, 2009 at 10:36 pm

Wow…I’m so sorry. The silver lining is definitely there and it will come out when you least expect it. I know that things will get better in an amazing way. Good luck, I’ll be thinking good thoughts for you!

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11 Laura March 12, 2009 at 11:22 pm

Wow, that’s how I felt when I got laid off from my job last year. It was such a horrible job that the overwhelming emotion was relief.

And a year later, I’m doing fine. You will be fine too.

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12 Heidi Renée March 12, 2009 at 11:28 pm

Wow, that’s a bummer. But it sounds like you won’t miss it!

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13 magda March 12, 2009 at 11:59 pm

I say we torch the place! Felonies are fun.

There’s so totally a silver lining, and there are great things in store for you … I just know it.

I’m going to miss our ghetto CC lunches, but I’m so happy you’re out of that hellhole. Have faith in the future. I think it’s going to be a very bright one.

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14 What Liz Said March 13, 2009 at 12:14 am

Even though it killed me to hear you on the phone earlier today, part of me is really glad you’re not around those toxic people anymore. Because it was just… you could see the weight you were practically physically carrying on your shoulders because you were working there.

As cliche as it is, everything happens for a reason.

You’re resilient. You’ll be okay. In the meantime, you have dope friends to keep your chin up and drink with you. <3333

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15 The Missus March 13, 2009 at 8:44 am

This truly is a blessing in disguise! Don’t stress… And be happy to have the time off.

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16 PomJob March 13, 2009 at 8:53 am

I’m so sorry. I’m sending lots of good wishes your way!

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17 notsojenny March 13, 2009 at 8:53 am

being laid off does blow… at the time. it’s definitely a sign of better things to come though. this economy makes it a scary time to face the unknown but it’ll all work out… it always does.
and it sounds like you’re already headed in a better direction.

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18 LJ March 13, 2009 at 9:16 am

Oh no. Ok, your Twitter comments make a lot of sense now (I’m totally behind on my blog reader – ooops). I know it’s kind of a mixed thing – not being happy in your job but then not really wanting to see it go away, right?

Very cool you’ll have time to do some freelancing and such. Is that what you’re hoping to do permanently going forward? Sending lots of positive thoughts. It sounds like you’re definitely due something good.

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19 A Super Girl March 13, 2009 at 9:38 am

Awww, this totally sucks. I’m glad you’re trying to look at the positives though, and you’ve already started interviewing, so that’s good!

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20 lexi March 13, 2009 at 10:16 am

Haha, Liz’s comment about dope friends made me laugh :)

Everyone already said the inspiring and uplifting things I was thinking…so I won’t repeat them, I will just continue to send happy thoughts and fun sounding jobs your way!

xoxo

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21 Jennifer Black March 13, 2009 at 10:22 am

I haven’t seen your layout in awhile, and it is so cute!

It sounds like you have a great attitude about your job loss!

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22 hazel March 13, 2009 at 10:24 am

sorry you were laid off, but like you said, it sounds like it’s a blessing in disguise. good luck!

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23 Zandria March 13, 2009 at 10:27 am

I think it’s definitely very, very true that this kind of change is a blessing in disguise — I know that you hated your job and I’m positive you’ll find something better for the next one. :)

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24 Lindsay March 13, 2009 at 10:31 am

((hugs))

You’re so right – everything happens for a reason!

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25 prettyneato March 13, 2009 at 11:29 am

Lots of warm wishes and thoughts heading your way. Being away from the cruddy feelings of that toxic place will allow you to be more yourself. Have a more positive outlook. And find a great solution.

Best of luck.

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26 heidikins March 13, 2009 at 11:39 am

I would say “I’m so sorry”, but the fact is, I think this will be good for you. I think this will be great for you. Not necessarily the “stress and craziness of finding a new job” part, cuz that will suck. But overall, I think this is a blessing in (a thinly veiled) disguise.

xox

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27 Jackie March 13, 2009 at 1:11 pm

So sorry Heidi! You definitely have the right attitude though :) Now you can find work that you enjoy!

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28 Mel March 13, 2009 at 2:56 pm

At least you don’t have to waste your energy/brain power on a place you didn’t want to be in the first place.

Good Luck!

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29 flipflopsintherain March 13, 2009 at 4:35 pm

I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time, but I’m so happy you’re able to get out of the miserable position you seemed to be in. I said the same thing to one of my best friends who went through this in September and now she’s much happier. I know the same will be true for you soon too!

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30 Kat with a K March 13, 2009 at 6:37 pm

Ugh, I’m sorry. But it sounds like it will end up working out for the best for you.

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31 KT March 15, 2009 at 5:24 pm

Oh no! I’m sorry to hear this….but glad that you are trying to see the good in the situation.

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32 Scarlet March 15, 2009 at 10:51 pm

so much silver lining that I don’t even see a cloud!

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33 Julie Q March 17, 2009 at 9:42 am

oh no! i was just catching up on all the blogs since getting back from vaca (and yours was the first) what terrible news. I’m very sorry, Heidi. I hope the lead I sent you works out or something else great pops up real soon. hang in there

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34 The Modern Gal March 22, 2009 at 10:45 am

I think they’re right, it is a bit of a blessing in disguise. I hope it does give you a chance to find something you love.

I’ve been so busy I haven’t been able to think about BlogHer lately, but let’s talk soon.

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35 whall March 22, 2009 at 5:53 pm

Best of luck to you and the silver lining you find!

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