It’s not a secret that I was unhappy in my most recent job. I felt largely that I was unchallenged, unmotivated and not really…going anywhere. There was, actually, no where to go.
So it was kind of a shock to me today at 5pm when my boss brought me into his office and told me they were restructuring, or reorganizing or whatever it was that he said after he said “We’re going to have to let you go.”
Ufff. Six months from my wedding day?!
Though typical, since I was having a no good, very bad day anyhow. Two paper cuts, two trips to get my boss’s lunch, and all around crankiness thanks to a lack of sleep.
It really is, as my two closest coworkers said to me, a blessing in disguise.
I was insanely unhappy. So much so that it was affecting my life outside of work – there was the ocassional day that I would cry before getting out of bed. There were days when I would want to curl up and cry under my desk. Days that I had such rage instilled in me.
No more.
I don’t have to wake up tomorrow. I can focus on freelancing, I can focus on our web design company. I can focus on other things like marathon training. Training the new pup. Reading. Etc…etc…
But still, it’s a little unnerving. Granted that ridiculously expensive stimulus package (that I might not have been a fan of previously) did just extend unemployment benefits, and the length of time that they’re available, so I might still have some faith in my party yet. And I did get like…a month’s severance (two weeks and my vacation time) so we have a wee bit of a cushion and I’m still waiting to hear about two jobs that I recently interviewed for. All is not lost.
Sooo….this isn’t such a bad thing after all. I can certainly make the best of a bad situation. There is a silver lining here. I know this.
