when the stars go blue…

I have been known to put too much in my blogs. This time last year, I put nothing, i wrote nothing of the butterflies, nothing of the kisses, the look in your eyes, the cuddling, the flirting, the first time i held your hand in the mall, or the first time you twirled me around. I had just been fired from my first job out of college and I just fallen for the one boy who was supposed to be off limits and none of it is written down.

But after a few late nights at Finn’s, lots of im’s, even more dunkins and one long weekend of never-ending fun later, we were together. Exactly one year ago today.

One year ago, I realized that I found someone who despite the odds, the twists of fate, the places we should have met before we did, came into my life and just swept me off my feet – literally…under the rotunda in the US Capitol at 10pm on a sunday night ending the most perfect weekend ever.

This past year has been one of ups…the downs never seem so bad when i have him by myside…everything i’ve gone through – losing two jobs, my grandfather having a stroke, the loss of friends as life just got in the way and everything in between…he’s stood by me through it all and then some. He’s incredible, patient, intelligent and just makes me happier than i could ever describe in words.

This morning, as we sat for a minute watching MSNBC, i had a moment of bliss. There are moments – little moments when i just realize how excited I am to know that this is the man i want to spend the rest of my life with. I can’t say I’ve ever felt that before so these little moments just spring up randomly and leave me with a secretive smile that I don’t share with anyone but myself and just bask in knowing that I am the luckiest.

I still remember, the way you looked at me that friday night as i sat across from you at finns, our heads close together, knowing that i wanted to kiss you but uncertain of the repurcussions. Saturday night was just perfect, the entire day really…so topping the weekend off with a dance under the rotunda in the United States Capitol sealed the deal for me. I can’t believe…it was a year ago though…almost a year since you presented me with a tiffany’s key chain and the key to your apartment in manhattan, a year ago since I introduced you to my other loves, my dysfunctional family from college, and almost a year ago since i brought you home to my grandparents.

One whole year. I haven’t been able to say that since my high school boyfriend. And even then, we broke up for good on our our one year. One year with the ex and we weren’t speaking, let alone celebrating. But this year is the first of many to come. The first year of us and the future we’ve planned together. I couldn’t be happier.

“Dancin’ where the stars go blue
Dancin’ where the evening fell
Dancin’ in your wooden shoes
In a wedding gown

Dancin’ out on 7th street
Dancin’ through the underground
Dancin’ little marionette
Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you’re lonely
Where do you go when you’re blue
Where do you go when you’re lonely
I’ll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover’s tongue
In a lullaby

Where do you go when you’re lonely
Where do you go when you’re blue
Where do you go when you’re lonely
I’ll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars, when the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue, blue, blue
Stars go blue
When the stars go blue

Where do you go when you’re lonely
Where do you go when you’re blue, yeah
Where do you go when you’re lonely
I’ll follow you, I’ll follow you, I’ll follow you
I’ll follow you, I’ll follow you, yeah
Where do you go, yeah
Where do you go, Where do you go” – The corrs w/Bono..

I love you..times a million.